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Day 7 of my Post Water Fast
My daily Journey to a healthier life style
Date: 12/15/2010 4:31:29 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 40130 times
December 1, 2010
It was a bad day, as Phil and I had a fight, in which I was so stressed about about bills and then not having a TV. I walked out of the house in the cold in my pajamas to clear my head and calm down. He had me going and so upset that I was wanting to scream at him. The most I lost it was saying “ I don't care.” as he was making me feel like I was asking too much for him to help me out, since he does live with me. I have supported him and his son by paying the utilities, buying the food (until recently, when he started buying his own food after I stopped buying so much food, a lot of it being wasted by him and his son) and having a place for they to live. I thought when he wanted to work things out and be a couple, it mean being a team, which it never has that I can recall. I had hope that once he got a job, or got on his feet, that he would help out, but he hasn't. Doesn't help do dishes, even though he dirties them more then I do, when I at least try to use the same cup or take the time to wash out a single plate or two if it easy to quickly wash, without running a whole sink of water. Doesn't help with taking out the trash when it is full. They will just keep piling stuff on it and around the trash. Sigh.
So I walked outside in my light coat over my pajamas, and no socks on when I slipped my shoes on. It was raining outside and it was cold. I was trying to calm down and prevent myself from walking into town (6 miles away), since I didn't have my phone or my keys. So I walked up and down the country road until I was almost soaked. I wasn't mad, I was just so frustrated with him. Can't he see that I am struggling with things? Does he not care about me anymore?
I walked back to the house and shed my wet clothes and got into bed so after, still sniffling with a hurting heart. He came in about ½ hour later, and asked me if I needed the car. I said “No.” but I really wanted to say “Don't you dare take off with my car to escape and leave your son here, as if I were some full time babysitter, regardless if he was sleeping or not, but I didn't. I held my tongue and just ended up crying myself to sleep and giving myself a headache.
FOOD INTAKE:
BREAKFAST: A ½ of Steamed veggies (carrots, broccoli and cauliflower) seasoned with garlic and herb spices (no salt added)
SNACK: NONE
LUNCH: a cup of mixed bean soup/stew
DINNER: A ½ cup of Steamed veggies (carrots, broccoli and cauliflower) seasoned with garlic and herb spices (no salt added) and a ½ cup of mixed bean soup/stew
EXERCISE: NONE
WATER INTAKE: Unknown
WEIGHT: 140 pounds
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