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monday 11th october
I see romantic chemistry as a subtle interaction between two people even when no words are being spoken. It is a kind of playful dance of invisible energy going on with them.
- Deepak Chopra
Date: 10/11/2010 1:18:23 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 58116 times I am feeling very stressed with college. It isn't usual for me to have so many demands being placed on my time and energy, and I'm feeling the strain.
My liver flush came a day late, but I did it last night. All went well; no nausea or waking during the night. Woke earlier than usual, feeling clear. Diet went off the wall over the weekend, but since yesterday afternoon I am back on track. Only eat 1 small steak today. I paid for the weekend with my weight: UP to 141 this morning. Terrible. But i am not afraid. And I know i'm doing the right thing in going back on the dietary plan straight away - it's not a yoyo thing i'm doing. I know i'm able for this. This time last year I used this diet to get to 126 lb. 15 lb down from where I am now.
Sorry, guys. I know this seems like I'm another crazy yoyo dieter that just bounces up and down in weight. Not so, thankfully. I mean, I'm with this.
I have set an end to this. Six weeks from today. That's it!
As i said, feeling stressed out. Every class in college seems like a test. Lots of one-on-one classes and lessons for me. I'm studying piano.
Yoga is on tonight. I would have to make the late class. Just finished work now. But i am so tired that i'm not sure.. I don't want to go & be running off adrenaline... is that what happens when you exercise when tired, at the end of the day? But it would feel so good in ways... and my skin.. it makes my skin so clear, the sweating.
*exhale.*
boyfriend is away a lot with work at the moment. i miss his company.
the not eating much does calm me down, though. In a deep way. It comforts me to know that i am not dulling my emotions with overeating, like I used to do so often.
Bye for now.
Love.
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