I was thinking.... and I dont want to cause negative feelings.....but this is a regret/confessions forum, I was assuming there is regret, if there is, then work to remedy the situation. No one is calling you or attacking you personally, but since I am outside of your world it may seem we are jumping on your case. I personally , when I do things, need a true "opinion"- it hurts sometimes-
If you do not see anything wrong with it then I have stated my thoughts and am not attacking you personally.
Yes there are a lot of people who do worse- but deeper inside there is a you that needs to relax, and you can do this in different ways if you want.