Judgmental? I'm just repeating what you just said. You said you liked taking your coke and beer and I'm telling you the truth. It's selfish and you need to stop and get therapy. You are an addict and your addiction can possibly endanger the lives of your children. When you admit this to yourself, you'll be a changed person. Sorry if you took it the wrong way, but better I tell you than some policeman tell you OR your husband tells you in divorce court.