Yes of course you are right yet burning so hot for anything to the point I will do anything is what I know puts me in a place where I get out of alignment from love. I only once had a passion for flight... Today, I would rather be a loving human being than a pilot... It is just as easy to mess up and its rewards outlast time...but flying again still fascinates me like ten pieces of silver... but who would I betray with that kiss? If I do fly again...it will have to come from a different place than in the burning of my wyrm... I am not sure of how it will happen... but this was sent to me by a dear friend...
"You can fly without a motor - then again, that's really called gliding. Find your motivation or remind yourself what it is. Fuel your desire so that you have the gumption to really go somewhere."
This gliding without a motor thing may be the solution....