RUDENSKI, you MUST fly

hmm.. deep thoughts rudi
yeah,you say that what if you spend your whole life dreaming of flight to heaven then when you are in heaven dream of having a human body flying an airplane?

the thing is that if you are in a true heaven, you will be at total peace and i don't think that you will be needing an airplane anymore to fly

HOWEVVVERRRR! you are on this earthly plane for now and this time is precious too because ... well, i don't know.. it just is ( i feel) anyhow... my very GUT feeling is that the thing is that if you have a passion that burns THAT strongly, i think you ought to do something about it as soon as possible because that is what your SOUL is calling out for and it MUST be appeased

soul is stronger than ANYTHING so you CAN and WILL do whatever it takes to appease it

and you MUST


it could be possible that this urge is so strong because it is the catapult to your earthly heaven ( the clouds could certainly resemble the heavens) which could be a heaven that is MORE visceral and REAL than your heavenly heaven because you are in the highest LEARNING realm which is the human body ( a fantastic arena for learning lessons ... more so than in heaven.. where you probably won't have impetus to learn anything at all if you are in so much bliss. where is the impetus if everything is hunky dory?)

so, yes... i suggest that you do whatever is in your power to make your dream come true because it is important for your SOUL to experience it

i know what i'm talking about. trust me. my dream may not be flying a plane but i do have other dreams and i HAVE and will continue to fulfill them..

actually, there was a point when my dream got shattered to pieces and it shattered and splintered my soul in a MILLION pieces.. and i think my soul really did die right there and then...

oh yeah, there was this movie called "SeaBiscuit" which was kind of a corny movie about a guy who rides horses in the races and that is his passion but he injures himself ( i forget what the injury was but i think it was his legs) and if he gets on the horse ( in the races), there is a chance that his injury could get more serious and irreversible

but he decides to do it anyways and i will never forget one of the lines which was something like " its sometimes better to break a man's legs than his soul"


he ends up riding the horse anyhow.. in the races because he MUST!! he doesn't know why exactly he just knows that it is the most important thing to him at the moment and if he doesn't something in his soul will irrevocably die

so... that is what i'm telling you... a bodily death is one thing... but a spiritual death is... well.. one ought to do everything in ones power to resuscitate the soul and allow it to bloom to its fullest

go get on that plane and fly!!!!!