Day 3--PROBLEM--Need some advice!

Middle of Day 3. HUNGRY!!!! This is what happens to me about this time every fast. I lose some weight, but then I start obsessing about whether I'm going to lose more, and I think I get to feeling even fatter than before. I think my skin is a little less tight now too, because of the weight loss, and that makes me feel like I don't really even look better. This is crunch time, and I'm getting a tinge of panic in my mind about whether I should give up. I CAN'T give up though! I've already paid A LOT of money to be in this pageant, and I'm not going to go onstage looking like I do. It's just so hard to push myself to go to the gym. The pilates isn't too bad, but the cardio sucks!!

I know this little monologue is a bit fragmented, so I apologize if it isn't the most coherently put together post, but I'm confused and frustrated right now. I'm finding myself thinking "if I have an order of fries, will that really hurt me?" or "maybe I can eat today and still be down to 140 by Sunday," but if I'd had some discipline last time I thought that, I'd be down to 135 by now! And if I'd been more disciplined every time I thought that since I started fasting, I'd probably be at my goal. So I absolutely cannot break this fast! I know I can't. But it's hard, because I want food now.

I have a couple of questions for anyone who can answer them. My first question is whether you think losing 15 or so pounds in 3 weeks will leave my skin totally saggy. I will be doing pilates and cardio (though I don't know how often I'll be doing the cardio, since I'm struggling to do it now), and I might do some home-made body wraps. Do you think I'll look tight? Secondly, how bad would it be for me to drink coffee? I'm really missing it right now! It's only half-caff, so it's not the caffeine that I miss, but the taste and sensation of it. It helped curb my hunger a lot, and I'm craving food so bad right now, but coffee would be a substitute that I could live with. How bad do you think it would be? I use 3 creams and 2 sugars. I'd say it's about 150 calories total.

Okay, that's all I have for now. Someone PLEASE answer my questions! I need reassurance and an honest opinion about how detrimental coffee would be to my weight loss. Thanks & good luck to you!