just checking in...

I've been in a terrible, downward funk lately...may need to switch to the Depression board. I have shoved everything i have learned about proper eating aside to return to my old habits; my body is racked with Arthritis - neck, knees, back, and I have no energy; I feel like I am carrying 10 bowling balls around with me wherever I go. I can't go on like this.

Hope you are doing well, Hopinso and Mike...i have missed you, but when I am like this, it's as if I fall off the face of the earth. I can't seem to reach out anymore to connect to healthy people and places.

A friend at work is 3 weeks into a prescription of a new anti-depressant called, I think, selextra, or selexra, maybe celexra with a 'c', I haven't researched it yet. I absolutely hate pills and have tried various ones over the years only to drop them because I firmly believe my diet and exercise program, along with a strong friendship network and spiritual life are the best tonic for depression. I know all of those things will help, but it's as if I can't bring myself to care anymore....that is a bad place to be. I thought if the anti-depressant could get me on track, then I might be able to get motivated again. When I asked my friend what the side effects are (so many of these pills can make you gain weight, AGH!), he said the only effect he has noticed so far is that he just feels like himself again, like the healthy person he used to be.

Sorry to dampen the spirits of this board, you know how much this place has always meant to me, but I do think of you often and wanted to let you know that I didn't fall off the face of the earth.

warmest regards,
Sky