So sad need some help

I'm in a situation. My cat ran away night before last ago. He hasn't returned yet. I'm losing hope. I'm feeling sooo sad. Almost suicidally sad. My boyfriend lives a state away from me. I am alone here. More than anything I want him here by me. He has some time off of work and could possibly be here. He chooses not to. He has been supportive over the phone when I need to talk to him. I'm very hurt that he decided not to come be with me in this time. There was another time when I needed him and it was the same situation where he could have possibly came to visit but chose not to. This was when I was in the hospital for a surgery. I love his phone support but I'm not sure this is enough... I'm hurting very much right now I dont want to do anything I'll regret. If anyone has advice I'd love to here it. We've been together for 6 months now and he has yet to come to my house. I lived with him for 3 months and prior to that I visited him 2x. Just some background history.