how can you know that it is going to work? and as far as giving it a try is concerned, it is not a pair of shoes which you want to try wherater it is going to fit or not. It's a matter of life, but as i told it's up to you. I know these things can break your heart but I can see that you are escaping from reality and want us to help you to make illiusion around you. I am sorry but this is fact.
I think you have already decided what to do then it is not a good at all to ask for any advice. You want us to give you vote for your desicion but you have to accept that our vote can be negative.