thanks .....and you are right, he is beautiful in every way, and I am lucky. I am 9 years older than he is and for some reason he is just so much more mature than I am in ways it blows my mind. I need to practice patience and trust and open up to this man. I just haven't ever felt loved like this and I am having a hard time knowing how to handle it, trusting the fact that he could actually feel the way I do. But as I have said, he is one in a million and I am not going to let it go over one mistake.