thanks...

hi lapis, i'm currently colon cleansing with hh.
not getting anything but good bm's and some parasites here and there...the usual. i've also started adding caprilic acid today for candida.

Liver Flush is coming...i can't get myself to do it tho! im just feeling stuck, which is more reason to do it, i know.

these dreams are horrible tho. they strike me when i'm on my way up again...out of no where. so like gracey recommended i will invest in a journal... and then do some sort of my own ceremony to rid of it when i'm done.

forgiveness...well that's a tough one. i did forgive. i had to stay with him for a couple weeks after he ditched me...and i suffered, but i did forgive him. i had to since i hate conflict. altho, there is a difference in forgiving and being friends. i find the relationship turned toxic and so i chose not to remain friends due to the fact that i need to heal. i finally feel like i have a choice, a say in this. before i felt trapped even tho i loved him with all my heart. since we did have a very strong bond i just worry that it might be him thinking of me or trying to somehow contact me through dream...and i don't want that....but then maybe i'm just giving him too much power.

i'll try writing my dreams for now.