Thanks for the response. My mother had a ton of boyfriends when I was coming up. My father dumped her before I was born so I've never seen him. My mother refused to give me any info. on him. I didn't find out his name until I was 21, in a new town applying for a social security card and happened to see his name. My mother married when I was 8 to a man I didn't then and still don't like. He was very jealous of my normal relationship w/my mother then and now she and I have a very abnormal relationship. I don't love my mother and have given up on ever knowing the person of my father. However, I will take your advice; I won't think about relationships for 6 months. I'll see what happens after that. I believe that will be a big help also in showing me how to overcome loneliness and maybe forget about romance altogether.