You assumed right. I have no children even though my biological clock is ticking away. I can imagine that romance is really a blast. When I'm out in public or sitting in a restaurant alone, I see these other smiling couples and I feel so not normal. So to console myself these days, I only do take out orders. But I believe Anonymous's response; that I have a fear of intimacy. I think too for the fact that I absolutely love men of other races instead of my own, doesn't help much either. In my mind, I'm so worried that my relatives think I'm gay. This makes it hard for me to go around them. I'm not gay in the least, but it's hard to convince people of that when you're 32 and no one has ever seen you w/someone. I kind of believe, I'm really whacked out.