Re: I see no Future.....

I have to say myself I know exactly how you feel. About a year ago I was pregnant, and slowly showed signs of eczema on part of my body. I went many times to the dermatologist, swearing it was scabies, even though I knew it wasn't. I took bloodtests, skin graphs, the works and they still couldn't figure it out. I didn't sleep either for weeks, and months. I was given every topical cream I think known to man, and oral drugs. Even ones to try and make me sleep. But they didn't make me sleep for to long. I know the pain and Depression you feel. You feel almost like Doctors in general let you down, because they are even to baffled. Not only was I pregnant but I also had this itchy skin that I thought would never go away. I hated how I looked even more. Time did pass and finally a Dr's office I went to in the city said it was a pregnancy related rash, or so they could only say. I did finally feel better after the birth of my child. I know your probably not pregnant and maybe I can say it actually went away, but I can say I know the disappointment, sadness, and the feeling of hating yourself and how you look. I used to think if there is a god out there, why would he make me go through this much aggrivation. I guess I don't really have an answer to that, but don't give up. I think stress has alot to do in the matter. But it's hard to not think about it either. Don't give up! Keep on the doctors to help you. I wish you the best and hope my story could give you some sort of comfort, I guess, knowing that there are other people that do go through alot of the same problems. I can at least tell you I have many scares that will take, I don't know how long to fade away, if they do, I hope! I have a constant reminder and fear of it coming back. Sorry you have to feel that way. No one should go through that. Tweet