If you having one loving thought then it will not be thrown away...Yah loves you so much... Our self detructive thoughts don't make it into heaven...they die when we die...the point in this life is to get as much good constructive learning about love into heaven as you can. Do you really want your self destructive thoughts to make it into heaven?...Heaven is about love...here is about learning about love in spite of our weaknessess...