Makes sense. Etheric body? I don't know what that is o.0... hmm.. I should research this stuff more.
The funny thing is, when I had this "nightmare", I was a generally happy person. All of my relationships were healthy, my chronic illnesses were in remission, etc.
It's hard to stop grieving, because my illnesses affect me everyday. And don't worry, I don't plan on waiting for my boyfriend. But I still hope he'll come back...
I can't thank you and Rudenski enough for your advice and wisdom. It's helping me a lot.