Re: How do you "KNOW"?
You sound like you have a very good understanding of your situation and what you want to do. Now all that remains is to do it. I will pray that you continue to have the strength to carry thru with your plans.
I do not expect that it shall be easy -- but think as positively as you can. Do not think ... my husband will not let me go -- he will go crazy, he will hurt me, etc. -- think I KNOW he can handle this. I will pray for him -- ask God to help you, your husband, your children to get thru this. If he stumbles, think loving thoughts. Think strength. I, too, have had to deal w/such a man (father of my son). As I said before -- when fears befall you -- DO NOT GO THERE. Believe that you are surrounded by God's love and that no evil can come to you. Do not think about what you will do IF ... Think -- the unthinkable will not happen. I do not live in a world where it can happen. I want only what's best for everyone. Think love -- think strength -- and most of all believe in yourself! We are all capable of great and wonderous things. God helps those who help themselves :-)
You believe you can do what needs to be done. Do not let others' fears cripple you. They may mean well -- but only you can decide what's best for you and your children. While there is a lot of negative energy in the world today -- there is also much energy for healing and understanding. There is much energy available for miracle-making. Use it, be it, do it.
Thank you for your kind words. I am glad I communicated something useful for you. I do not set aside time for meditation -- but in a sense I meditate periodically thru-out any given day/night. I keep myself open -- I listen. To me, meditation is the ability to "hear" what the divine is sharing w/you. It is in the stillness of any given moment that we can best hear ourselves and God commune.
God bless and protect you and yours :-)