Re: How do you "KNOW"?

Your message was very helpful to me. Thank you for caring. This site is keeping me going. Do you meditate every day? I am hearing from all directions that meditation is the way to go. I can understand your experience with religion. It threatens with the punishment of hell, and I do not believe this. I believe in love and mercy. I believe Jesus did, too. I don't believe in an angry, vengeful god. I believe he is more of a parent saying, "Here they go making the same mistakes again. They haven't learned. I'll be here with the crying towel for them and the shoulder to lean on." I will keep going until I get my "knowing" no matter what. Suicide is not an option as I have two children. I have a husband who has been passively-agressively mentally abusive and has beaten my self-esteem into the ground. He doesn't believe there is anything wrong with him. I have decided to leave him, as my 13-yr-old daughter has been begging me to do for two years. Isn't that sad? However, the negativity I have encountered has floored me. My son has cerebral palsy. They say, "You're just going to have to find ways to ignore your husband. You won't make it with a handicapped son." My son happens to be bright, and not so severe that he won't be able to walk with crutches one day. Then one lady said, "At least my kids grew up and moved away. You'll never have that." I try to not get mad and pray for these people instead, but that is hard. I must get away from my husband to continue this journey of mine, otherwise I will be old and dead inside one day, with not one day of happiness. Thank you all for listening.