When are you going to learn to loosen up some and learn to have fun and enjoy the ride?
Also, are you not a person who is able to read something completely?
"IF" you could comprehend what you are reading at the end of my posts, I always sign off leaving the choice in your hands, so you have no one else to Blame but yourself for any unhappiness you may be having!
And your Sickness and Disease are also your choice to have or not have!