Congradulations on your recovery. Addiction is a hard thing to beat. But just as how difficult that part of your life was, so will this. Both are forms of addiction. You calling your (wife) to try to get her back if that be the case, you unknowngly are addicted to her in some form. It is very easy to become addicted to our lovers in life because they are always there no matter what and sometimes we can abuse them (not that I mean physically) but take them for granted. Now is your time to go through that same process you did 7 years ago, which is learning to let go of your dependency on HER and leaving HER alone. She will only respect you more and you will be able to respect yourself because you will not lose your dignity and pride. Make yourself busy. Get those things done that have been sitting there for months. But most of all allow for your heart to heal, you will go through so many emotions you will feel like a girl who's gotbad PMS. But its necessary. Get moving with your life but look at the things that may have caused her the pain to leave, so that you can better yourself for the next deserving person. Good luck.