just a followup...
I got you pm this morning, and it’s good to hear from you. Hold on to your resolve, you are going to need it. Alcohol is a subtle foe, it will use every trick you can think of to reenter your life. You can’t outsmart it. Will power as valuable as it is, is of little use against this demon.
Have you found a list of local meetings yet? All meetings are somewhat unique. There are no hard and fast rules to meetings. The people who are the meeting set the agenda for that meeting. We are a merry band of individualists. We for the most part hate being told what to do, and when to do it.
But most meetings follow a loose set of guidelines. Mostly we start out with the serenity prayer. “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” If you ponder that short prayer, it is a very big thing.
Then sometimes the person leading the meeting will ask if there is anyone in the room for their first meeting? You can raise your hand or not. You don’t have to do a damn thing. We value our freedom. But I suggest that you do.
In my first meeting, and we all had our first scary meeting, but we all lived through them, the meeting centered around me, and the other guys shared their stories about their drinking, so I would feel like I was in the right place. They also talked about powerlessness, and unmanageability. Then they invited me back. Keep coming back, that is what they told me.
You will also probably get a bunch of phone numbers, like I said before, use them. Like the old Chinese saying goes, a journey of 1,000 miles begins with a single step.
You can contact me directly at shadowalker164@aol.com if you wish. mushroom49, take my advice! Get into action. Your options are somewhat limited, I think you know that.
Getting into the solution is your best chance.
Richard