Please support me with my mirena removal

Hi,

I do not even exactly know where to start, I am just desperately in need of support. I am getting my IUD removed today and I am all panicked and crying.
I have had mirena (actually jaydess- a 'milder' version of mirena) since ~20 months.
I have been struggling with the side effects for a long time but I could not find any confessions of women who had jaydess. Only recently I understood that jaydess and mirena are essentially the same. And I read stories of women who had similar experiences to mine.

I am afraid that removing the IUD will not bring me back to being myself. And if it does, I am afraid that the regret of not having done it earlier will destroy me completely. Please help me find strength

Here is my full story:
For around 1.5 years now I am dealing with extreme confusion, problems with vision, fatigue, memory loss, panic attacks, breathing problems, depression, heat waves and all sorts of "minor" things like constant infections and hirsutism. I feel like I have changed so much in this time and I am not even sure sometimes if I am really alive or not. I cannot even believe that it is possible to feel like this.
I talked to several doctors, GP and gynecologists, and none of them wanted to support me in the decision of removing this thing. I was clearly asking whether there is even a slightest chance that these terrible side effects are cause by my IUD but I have never gotten an affirmative answer. Several doctors even told me that it is not possible that my IUD causes me to feel this way, especially that jaydess releases a lesser amount of hormones than mirena. I have been in a serious struggle for around 8 months now, considering the removal but all I am getting is "it is up to you", "it is your decision", "you will only know for sure once you have it removed". Nobody *advised* me to have it removed and checked whether the symptoms persist.
The reasons why I was hesitating to remove the IUD is that last year I had an operation for hernia, before which I was on strong painkillers for a long time, and followed by mononucleosis. I also had a lot of stress related to my family situation and study. Long story short, I had a lot of reasons to trick myself into thinking that my IUD might not be the reason why I got crazy. And not to forget, I was constantly confused.
Additionally, the IUD insertion was extremely painful for me. It is the last mean of hormonal contraception that I have left to try, other ones always gave me bad headaches and weight gain. Removing it means that I will have to compromise on safety during sex, as hormonal contraception is safer than mechanical.. All in all, I was reluctant to removing it just to check whether it makes a difference.


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