Depression, ADHD, where/how do I start???

Desperate for help. My issues are primarily mental and some physical. I am hopeful that I can at least get some guidance and direction on how I should start my healing journey. Any advice is greatly appreciated!!! MD's can't help me and I'm overwhelmed by self-treating. I posted on here previously but was in a much worse state than now and couldn't take action.

Background info about me:

Female, early 20's

I have ADHD- inattentive type and it's always been a MAJOR struggle for me. I used to take adderall to get things done but Ive always hated doing so.

Symptoms: disorganization
-difficulty prioritizing and especially initiating tasks
-extreme procrastination
-difficulty getting things done
-hyper focus, easily distracted, fidgety
-very bad memory, short and long term

My main current struggle is with extreme depression that I've had for 4 months now. I feel like I've lost myself. It's been completely debilitating, Im not working although I want to, I've been isolating myself, and just overall lost any motivation for living at one point I didn't even want to live. I used to be happy, confident, and social and I just really want to get back to my old self. I'm trying to get my life together and going to therapy which isn't helping much. I started taking antidepressants out of desperation and because my family can't handle me breaking down crying everyday. I know there must be a physical (and spiritual but that's a different story) cause for this and I do believe in the body's ability to heal itself but I need something to keep me afloat for now at least. I can't keep wasting my life like this anymore :(

Symptoms:
-no hope
-easily overwhelmed
-loss of confidence
- socially awkward
- constant worry, negative thoughts
-not enjoying anything/ apathy
-very quiet
-difficulty coming up with anything to say
-extreme sadness
-blankness, empty
-no motivation
-brain fog, difficulty articulating thoughts
-indecisiveness
-difficulty connecting with others

Physical Symptoms:
-constipation
-always had lots of belly bloat
-constant need to urinate (started after antibiotic for UTI) (gonna try thuja for that)
-GERD (found by doctor -idk if its true)
- sleep changed from very heavy sleeper to very light sleeper when depression began ( hate this- any insights?)
-athlete's foot

These began the day after I was nail biting and I think its because of nail has fungus:
- white spots on tongue
-bad/ strange breath
-throat hoarseness/ congestion, feeling of something in throat
-itching and pain in ears after scratching with nail (not so bad anymore)

Current medication: zoloft (weeks), lamisil for nail fungus ( about a month desperate to get rid of it after trying topicals), Mirena IUD 1 year, previously implanon for years

I've considered that maybe I have candida overgrowth but that's just a guess. If so, It seems as though its so difficult to get rid of and I know that diet is not enough - plus I'd like to get to the root cause like heavy metals maybe? I've read that chelating heavy metals can be dangerous and cause more damage. The most comprehensive although a little scary protocol I've seen is Bill's Candida Killing so sweetly ( on here and earthclinic) using turpentine and other stuff. Any thoughts on this?

The other protocol that seems comprehensive although I need to read more on it is Dr. Kenneth Sutter's which consists of lots of detoxification flushing, and killing parasites, and candida would be the last to go...Any thoughts on this?

Thoughts on diet?

2 things that freak me out: Parasites and them scattering or getting worse because I messed with them and doing some thing wrong chelating heavy metals and ending up worse

I really want to find hope. Someone Please help me. Sorry this is so long.
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