"My whole point is to spare me a horrific death. Like if they knew, they could help if it came down to that"
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"The docs have the worst worm denial syndrome."
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Some play piano. Some play fiddle. Some play people on internet forums.
The O.P. is devoid of harmony in the post I've responded to.
Maybe it is desperation. Maybe it is damage suffered from parasitical exploitation.