Re: Possible blood clots? spread cancer? autoimmune disease? help?

it actually wasnt my hamstring, it was the back of my calf. i have protruding joints around my left knee there and i worry it may be related. i dont know. as for stds... well they have tested me for aids (which i know might not even exist as its thought to), herpes, clamydia, gonerea, and etc. but testing for 'hpv' is not really done for males. i wanted them to biopsy part of me to see if that is whats going on years ago but the urologists all tried to talk me out of it. for whatever reason, doctors would never let me push to find answers and concluded im just blah.

emotionally i feel amazing these days. i met a girl. but it is also devastating because im so sick. i told her everything the first time i met her but she wouldnt be scared away. i hope i havent killed her too. i am somewhere between on top of the world and in the worst depths of hell simultaneously. it seems meeting her was lifes one last sick joke against me. torture me with the happiness i could have had. i now have every reason to want to live but i am dying faster than ever. and she needs me and i just cant even be there. its going to be so devsatating :( Tweet