Re: to OP

well i have been resigned to simply die after trying and failing so many things. i wish i could have posted this anonymously... i should make a new account as i did not want to go into my entire spectrum of symptoms. like i usually do. i saw a naturopathic doctor recently but he kind of tried to believe that my symptoms are all in my head. its not true. im pretty sure i do have some kind of stds or autoimmune disease or cancer or all of the above. it is devastating because i met this girl recently who i simply could not escape from. i never try to hook up with anyone because i dont know if i am contagious (been tested so many times but still) but this amazing girl was so drawn to me she wouldn't let me go. i tried to scare her away, i told her everything wrong with me and how im not sure what is wrong, but she didnt care. she didnt want to believe it or thinks im more of a hypochondriac. ultimately i couldnt resist her. :( it is going to end in the worst Depression ever and i just hope that i will be effing dead before she gets... sick. if that is even possible :( i feel horrible about it. were like in love but i might end up having killed her too. and now with my legs ruined i just dont know if we will even be able to do anything together anymore. it pretty much makes me want to die. as for my legs being cramped up... this is brand new for me. and i know if i cant even walk anymore, there is little i will ever be able to do. thats why i kept the post strictly to that subject. i hope death takes me quietly, or i wish there was a way i could do something. anything. if not just to have another week or month of happiness with her. Tweet