Re: The Holy Trinity.

"how can we win this evil war or you do not know. it is very big trouble indeed. that my soul will not rest if no answer is found.no use of pretending that all is right. then there is no Love that is working in the self. one time all we find out before God so why not Loving now to know him? why we are not strong enough to stop the evil wars and injustice. I have believed that all that God promised is here to be found easily and then blamed not to have loved in reality."

Trust, this is a question that I've asked myself quite often as I've been on my personal journey back to God.  The answer that comes up over and over again is that I'm here to take care of and heal myself and let God take care of the rest of the world.  Along with that is as I heal myself (return to God) and change, those around me are forced to change as well.  They may drop out of my world as friends, or family may tell me I'm going to hell (I've been to hell and I'm not going back) and shun me.  So, I have to accept what is instead of what I want the world to be.

It's the same type of question over and over.  Why do children die of cancer?  Why do good young Christian adults die of cancer?  Why do children in some parts of the world starve?  Why don't friends and relatives see the same God that I see?

I am also a sole survivor of an air disaster where I bailed out of a burning airplane in the middle of the night and my pilot didn't make it.  I learned that all sole survivors ask a similar question.  Why did I survive and not the other or others?  I was also in the front line in Korea where men died around me and I witnessed that.  I've questioned why I didn't get hit and others did.  I also saw Chinese troops no more than a hundred yards from me die from one of our brutal rocket attacks as well.  I ask why them and not me?

I simply have to trust God what what He/She has for all of humanity and mind my own business and continue my own connection with the Divine.  God knows what He/She is doing.  I don't.  But I have to trust Him/Her.