such a sad story. I became ill after the birth of my 1st and only child as well so I relate to the heartbreak of your story. not feeling well during those first irreplaceable years of your child's life is devastating. I am not an expert on anything because I am still recovering myself but getting better as the days go by so I know there is hope. I found that, in my case (i have candida and hypothyroid) focusing on the health of your liver is a very important first step. by either taking herbs and or coffee enemas to release stagnant bile in live has saved my life because it has freed up the toxins my liver was dealing with to make room for eliminating toxins more efficiently and giving me some toxic relief. I know that someone else out there will have better insight for you but that is just my experience so far.