Would you ever consider getting on your face for hours and begging the Living God in travail for the truth? Anything less is pride. I really do see this as a heart relationship with the Lord Jesus more than anything else, a deep loving relationship with the risen Lamb of God that that no amount of theological pontification (for which there is a vast abundance of opposing theology) can ever fill. I love you though chette. I really do and i always will. May the Living God richly bless you.