You live in a fantasy world of designer watches, wealthy families, and well paying careers and relationships full of smiles and "highs" thrown your way without any effort on your part, and it doesn't sound like you have had to struggle or genuinely suffer a single day of your life.
If you cannot even express the BASIC levels of communication with someone- then the relationship is not based on anything REAL because neither of you live in the REAL WORLD and it will not work out in the long run.
So, first find out who you are underneathe all the societal superficial B.S. then worry about relationships.