Greetings J,

Thank you for taking the time to compose your thoughts. I have enjoyed reading of your views for a number of months now; in fact, I rather wondered where you had wandered off to of late…it is good to see that you have returned.

Your own fasting experience is encouraging. I have been planning an extended fast for some time, but old emotions and oppressive family members seem to consistently force me into regression. I just received MH’s dewormer and kidney cleanse formula, so I hope to complete the course of both before commencing my (at least) fourteen-day fast. Interestingly, I also received Dr. Christopher’s, The School of Natural Healing, so I surely have much to study when I am abstaining from food.

The clearing of negative emotions is my highest priority, as I can not imagine myself ever being “well” whilst hanging onto these destructive, malignant thoughts. It feels as if my mind and body are attempting to self-destruct at periodic intervals and I would surely do far better in “life” were I free of them and the curse they bring.

The odd thing is, I am incredibly thin so I am not entirely sure where this toxicity is hiding, since there is almost nothing of me! Still, I can feel it within me, so something must be done.

Reading of you waking each morning to pleasant thoughts and feelings is incredibly inspiring. As of now I wake each morning feeling as if I have been mauled in my sleep (…deathly encounters with incubus and succubus…), plus my mental state is especially horrendous in the a.m., yet it peaks when dusk falls. For months I can feel “reprogrammed,” as you put it, yet one “panic-attack” later and I am right back where I began, feeling as if all I had just learnt and experienced was futile. Oh well…

I am considering leaving the internet (and all technology) for as long as I fast, and abstaining from all things except sunlight, air, distilled water and bowel formula; returning to “life” renewed and refreshed: pure and innocent, yet enlightened. The thought itself is wondrous…

You have most certainly aided in my recovery from the far-from-surprising, bi-monthly “panic-attack.”


Lee.