Re: does god hate me
For goodness sake---listen to me ---YOU ARE NOT DIRT!
I guess you're under 18 and still have to live at home? If so, did you look at the link I gave you? Are you able to call the RAINN Hotline?
Of course, you feel love and loyalty to your mother. However, what your mother is doing is wrong. To blame you for ruining her trip, is simply unbelievable!
I would first recommend getting in touch with RAINN. Listen to what the person on the other end of the line has to say. Whatever they suggest that you do, let them know what concerns you have. Ask what can be done for your brother's stepdaughter living in Jamaica.
You have to take the first step and get some help. It will take some courage---I'm not going to lie. However, by taking that first step, it could well bring healing to your entire family.
Best of luck and please get going---make that call! If you are unable to call from Canada, read the website for info.