Re: Lots of good stuff enclosed...Re: Itching, bumps...something biting me?

first off thanks for the great reply.

second. I'll make your broth this weekend. and I now realize why the if2 gave me such ba anxiety. I drank so much water an it threw off my adrenals baaaad.

I'm gonna cut 1mg but every 2 weeks. I don't care how long it takes. after I feel a lil better maybe I'll do 2mg every 2 weeks. I need my withdrawals to go away.

I know im lakin nutrition. badly!!!

yesterday I caved an or work was having a huge free lunch, I had a big salad. some potatoe salad, chicken, piece of bread. ranch dressing. that night I felt more clear headed, although I know it's bad for my body I still needed the nutrition. my main focus is benzos anyways. I'm not gonna go back to a crap diet. but I had to nourish my body before something bad happened.

I'm hoping that just by holding at my current dose I'll stabilize. I really don't wanna add more. I'll give it an extra week this time. if I don't feel better I may have to add some sadly.

that recipe with the barley sounds amazing gonna try it this weekend

ALSO now that I'm working I got money for the extra stuff. like I plan on buying one of those earthing mats for my bed.

I'm trying I am, even tho symptoms sometimes get the best of me im doing what I can sometimes my body doesn't wanna think or move. after eating that food yesterday I was able to read more on the forum. I was able to write some poetry. was able to stay up later, had more energy. I still take a big swig of ACV with all solid meals followed by a couple if1.

still my benzo brain confuses me an I feel lost at times. I really wish I had a girl or someone close to help me out with food an remembering things an support. im alone in this. an hiding the fact of how sick I am from everyone but my mom. an she can't do much for me we don't even live in the same city anymore.

I noticed when I ate the bad food yesteday. 15 mins later was having cramps in ascending Colon an then gas. definitkey something in there. I think I'm gonna take a day off from work next week an get a colonic.