Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it

I am fighting a systemic parasitic infection (strongyloides) which is ravaging my entire body, insides and out. My skin is so god-awful ugly right now, and I feel so bad, and I'm just so damned depressed.

Thing is, it wasn't this bad until I started using herbs to treat it, then they went crazy, and now it's like nothing I've ever seen, like a horror movie! Just since September of last year, I have gone from bad to worst! The first round of Humaworm brought them out a little, but this last one drove them crazy, and now I'm just covered with thousands of these worms. I think they feed off of it!

I'm going to have to take some heavy duty meds to try to get rid of these things, but there is no guarantee. It's like a life-long illness, and reading some of the posts on the parasite drugs forum makes me just want to end it all now.

I now have a condition they call "lizard skin" which is horrible. My arms look so bad, I don't even want to let anyone see them, and my legs are starting to look bad too, with scars all over them. It gets worse every day.

I don't even want to get out of bed anymore. I'm way past depressed. The only thing that keeps me going is my sons. I would never do anything to hurt them.

But honestly, if they did not exist, I don't know what I would do. In three months, my life has completely turned upside down because of this. Tweet