Re: It is amazing how God gives you what you really need

Sacristia, thank you for opening up and telling us more of your story. I wish things were not as you said, that it's safer to open up sometimes to non-christians than christians, but I know the truth is, you are right. I wish all christians would stop pretending to have no problems and being so hard on those who admit they do. The churches are not for well people, but sick people, and we all need healing in all kinds of ways.

I'm so glad you were blessed by going to that church service you went too. I have had that happen too where I was reluctant to go somewhere, but once I got there, I knew it was God's love shining on me and a message He didn't want me to miss. I love the Joseph story so much too. You know for all those years Joseph was probably so puzzled as to what was all happening to him, and then one day God made it all so clear to him. This part of the story always moves me when I hear it. It shows Joseph's built up emotions over all that had happened just pouring out:

Genesis 45:1
1Then Joseph could not control himself before all those who stood by him. He cried, "Make everyone go out from me." So no one stayed with him when Joseph made himself known to his brothers. 2And he wept aloud, so that the Egyptians heard it, and the household of Pharaoh heard it. 3And Joseph said to his brothers, "I am Joseph! Is my father still alive?" But his brothers could not answer him, for they were dismayed at his presence.


I think of my own struggles and how one day the things that have so puzzled me will be clear, and I'll have a huge emotional release like Joseph. :)

We all need to just let our hurts drive us to Christ all the more. In Christ, there is no condemnation. (Romans 8:1)
I love this scripture that talks about God counting all of our tears. I don't usually quote the New Living Translation since I know it's probably not that great in a lot of ways but I love how it puts this scripture:

Psalms 56:8
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.