Re: I need to vent.

Thanks for the comments. I have a major optimism problem, namely, I don't have much, and never have. Sometimes I feel almost positive; I'll talk about what I want to do when I get better, I'll push myself to do more than I think I can/want to, etc. Other times, I have an absolute flood of negative thoughts. Honestly, it's hard to believe you'll get better when you've been sick for so long, and when your life is so much different (and not in a good way) than it used to be.

I actually slept fairly well for most of the night. When I went to bed, I felt calmer. My ability to worry like a professional has always been there, but in the past year, it's strengthened. Now, just a little thing, like dirty dishes or one of my cats whining can really just set me off in the stress department.

The thing is, I can live with many of my symptoms. I can deal with the tinnitus; I just have constant noise to drown it out. I can deal with the physical pain; sadly, I've gotten used to it. I can deal with the insomnia to an extent; I've had it since childhood. I can deal with the anxiety and depression; again, I've had them since childhood and learned coping skills. But I can't live with this crippling fatigue that prevents me from living a productive life and having social contact.

Anyway, I am feeling a bit better today. Like I said, it comes and goes. Thanks for listening. Tweet