Re: Oh God, can this be right?

Hi Marci, Hv and all:

I appreciate all the sweet thoughts. Hubby is sleeping right now, and he has been eating some (brown rice with chicken broth, ice cream, malt-o-meal, juices, etc). The only thing that's been helping him is the muscle relaxers, Flexeril. I would rather have a natural one for him, that works as well. I've been doing searches and not sure which ones would work as well.

Sometimes, he feels dizzy, and he's mostly been sitting or lying down. I think the Flexeril is making him drowsy. He's been sleeping quite a bit, for which I'm glad, because I want him to have his strength.

He has optimism and plans for us. He has never given up, and he has great spirit. Whenever I feel down, he always brings me back up. We both have depression, but it seems this crisis has renewed his spirit, and made him more determined to live.

He asked me for the Essiac every day, and a friend wants to give me some graviola (not sure about that one). He believes he has a tumor, but doesn't think it's malignant.

He has a doctor appt. this week, and we "SHOULD" be able to see the results of the endoscopy. My husband had to sign a release for his reports to be given out, including getting one for ourselves, but he was told he couldn't have them! Even if we see them, how in the world do we trust these people to give us the right ones? These medical "professionals" seem to be mostly psychopaths!

I'm reading the CT scan report, which we managed to get from the emergency room - it says FINDINGS: he has many low attenuation lesions on his liver, consistent with diffuse hepatic metastases. Dilation of the distal esophagus. Marked thickening of the gastroesophageal junction with stricture, consistent with gastroesophageal carcinoma. The distal esophageal mass measures 3 cm in diameter and 6 cm in length. Lymphadenopathy in the gastrohepatic ligament. The visualized portions of the small bowel are normal.

IMPRESSION: 1. Marked thickening of the distal 6 cm of the esophagus with obstruction, consistent with gastroesophageal carcinoma. 2. Prominent lymph nodes in the gastric hepatic ligament. 3. Numerous heopatic mesastases.

Bless you all,
Angelbleu