so true Willow ..but how can I change it ? when thats all I have ever known ..my mother was that way and super negative always living in the past and it seems that I am turning out just like her...that is learned behavior and I dont know how to unlearn it either thats why I said I have not got the tools to fix myself ! HAHA
I know it isnt funny but I am just trying to lighten up and try to laugh a little today ...