Sorry for the conflicting statement, it is really stressful to write "raw", not daring to save any drafts on any computer or USB stick he might gain access to. I clean my browsing history every time I have looked at this site.
His staying oppressively close physically is quite a new behavior, and the first thing I consider a serious warning sign safety-wise. It is also the reason why I am in the process of changing all those of my passwords that lead to resources I can not afford him to foul up for me, should he turn really nasty.
I am not in the US. I have all the hotline numbers for this region at home, but thankfully many of them are posted online as well.