Re: Trusting the trustworthy
Hi Rain baby,
to trust is a self generated virtue so it does not come nor go from other people, things or events.
In your post you give your power away to those other people in your past that betrayed your trust as saying they destroyed everything you believed in and they made you doubt your sanity, faith in God and in mankind, and so that means you are giving those other people way too much power over your life.
Blaming the other people is the mistake and the right way is to blame our self for everything in our life.
That does not let the other people off of the hook - oh no, because other people are mean and hateful and ignorant and worse, but we have to create a healthy detachment from other people.
http://www.livestrong.com/article/14712-developing-detachment/
To trust must be within our self and not dependent on any other person.
We have to trust the untrustworthy because otherwise there will be no truth in our world.
The great Man you have now is not perfect, and he will make his own mistakes and he will fail in some ways just as all human being do, and it is not a matter of trusting him but trusting your self to deal with the problems as they come up, and we trust others only so far as we trust our self.
The thing you lost was not trust for others - it was that you lost the trust in your self.
You did make mistakes before and it is not the fault of the other people for your mistakes.
The thing that sent you "over the edge" is that your faith in your God and in mankind and your own sanity failed you and you have not fixed them yet.
If this new Man was to restore your faith then he will not be able to live up to the load you are putting onto him.
Of course you say you do see the little defects in your new Guy and you point his problems out because you are trying to fix him as a way to match up to your own defects that you have not fixed in your self.
You are clinging to that old trust inside your self that has already failed you before and surely it will fail again if you do not fix your self.
Since your belief in God and your faith in mankind and your own sanity were betrayed within your self, then those are the issues that you need to discover what is true and what failed? your belief was wrong then correct it, your faith was wrong so you need to make it right, in your self and not in or through any one else.
That is my advice.