Trusting the trustworthy

How do you learn to trust once you have had someone else from your past destroy you and everything you believed in. someone that made you doubt your own sanity, your own faith in GOD and man kind. Not that i look at myself as a victimk anymore, BUT I do know now where and what happened in me to turn me so hard and cold, i guess what could be considered the icing on the cake on the abuse scale that what i think sent me over the edge and i didnt come back for a few years.

see i have this awesome man that i have been with for almost a yr, and he hasnt DONE anything to make me not trust him. he doesnt have any issues that all the others that i have known. he is loyal and honest and respects me, and wants to make my life better with my daughter as a family. this is the happiest that i have ever been. and i have been in therapy the whole time, to learn how to have a good healthy relationship. I have healed alot and have learned alot, but when i get upset and over react, it bumms me out, bc I want to trust my man, whom deserves it so much.

then the flip side is that I am not the poor jacked up girl that i have told myself that i was, my man now may not have all the hard issues to overcome that i do, but he has shit he needs to fix just as we all do. Well I had to bring some of that up to him, and he took it ok i guess. but its hard to admit that he has issues too, wven if they arent what i have always known, he may be faithful and hard worker and not an alcoholic/addict and not an abuer, but we all have our crap, i guess i put him on a pedastal like i do everyone, that i think i dont derserve, then they fall and i get pissed, well at least he didnt fall, my therapist brought it up and at least i am living in reality now instead of fantasy which is so much safer sometimes.

I just want to know that there is hope, that I can learn to trust myself again, and know that I will be okay no matter what happend, man or NOT!!

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