Tracey I know how you feel. I do FEEL that whatever you went through was transforming for you. It makes me think of the movie big fish. There was a scene where the character saw the love of his life and time stopped while he admired her and made plans to be with her i guess. Anyway that piece where time started again and it was all sped up in order to "catch up" and account up for the slowdown that is how I feel also. Have not had time to think on the transforming I did and about to take another dip.