Re: I need some questions answered?

We started our custody battle in october and will be going to court for the second time soon in Jan. We r going to have her (see I can't even think of the word) umm....mental health evaluation!!! Yea! She really is a crazy drug addicted person and I have sympothized with her alot but i have not always felt crazy just since having my baby and getting this thing put in. (we were somewhat friendly at one point)I seem to be most of the time just lazy and indifferent to anythign and everything.. and when I am not I am extrememly angry (like i want to hurt people but that makes me cry immediately after feeling like that too)I just need to know if these symptoms of the crash are long and really bad becasue like i said now I am ususlly just indifferent like i could care less for anyone or anything going on.. But i do get seriously anxious when it comes to the many stresses we have in our new family. I think i am just gonna pull it out myslef casue I can feel the strings.. we don't have much money and I do not work (of couse)I am jsut scared i will be much worse during a very important time in our custody case. I do not want to loose to her, she is unstable in every way and her love for him is more of a dependant on him for a reason to go on. She has problems but all in all i no longer care or have sympathy for someone so hateful. And though I am going insane on the inside, I know I am not me.(where as she has genetic mental problems) Should I wait and just be some super shitty and uncaring mom and wife or go through a serious crash and me ruin our case by pushing the love out of everyone? that is how i feel I am pushing everyones love for me,out of them. I should just get rid of it but am super scared is all


tired of feeling devoid of life