Yeap! This played a role, I'm sure. I played with occult superficially (i.e. read a book or two, checking out horoscopes, letting a friend read my palm), but nonetheless, I did do what is apparently an act of abomination according to Judeo-Christian word of God, a law which I now belive to be true. I was a seeker, and looked in all kinds, including many wrong, places. For this I repent and am being delivered from.