Before I had a NDE, I read the bible and didn't stop to pay attention to the hateful God written about like a spear in the side...but he was there....like a cancer... placed carefully in of the beautiful words written within... The God of self-loathing... the God who kills children for laughing at a bald headed prophet... a God who strikes down the walls of Jericho...so men could murder men...and women, children, and suckling babies....everything within its walls.... a God who sends plagues on men...a God who slaughters his enemies... and I justified these actions as I believed that God had enemies... but in my NDE... I discovered that every person...regardless of their faith or absence of it is a spark of light...an orb made out of the same substance that God is made out of... We are truly God who is love's children...
The main thing that my NDE gave me was discernment... I even met a lesser version of God right before I re-entered the atmosphere... I would call this being God... but there was no love in him... I believe that I was given this perspective to be a messenger to those that are open to the idea that there is a lesser God...the same murderer and creator of the Universe that Jesus calls "a devil" but Jesus held his tongue from saying this lesser being is really the hidden dimension of God that I refer to as the Librarian(Karmic God) ... however Yahshua does call out to the religious of his day that their father is the murderer of their religious scrolls... I am doing nothing less...greater things.. in my moments when I shine...lesser things...when I hold a grudge,,, but I saw the same father in the sky that Jesus met... I just don't call him S_tanel but if that is how Jesus saw it then that is okay with me... I just call it like I see it too... that father is a lesser God...
There are many Christians who just overlook the evil God of the Bible and only see good and there are many New Agers who believe all is one...
but I was given the gift of discernment to see what really makes it to the highest level of what God is... and that is one... love...from a billion billion different perspectives... all totaled up and called love...
but I am here...still inside the illusions the God of this world cooked up...in collaboration with me and all of my fallen friends... but I came back knowing what I know... that both the religious and New Agers are both of them are right and all of them are right... But... No one is going to convince me that the God in heaven sends she-bears to kill children or anyone else for that matter... and no one is going to convince me that everything is love... Rape and murder are not "love" ; cruelty and meanness are not "one"....
There is a duality... it is real because if it were not so ...there wouldn't be some religious nut telling his congregation that God hates Muslims...or Christians.. or Jews... or anyone else for that matter... Yusuf Islam is my hero....at least his poetry put into song is... Peace Train is my other favorite that he wrote while he was a Christian(I am not sure).... but it just proves to me that heaven is coming here...while we are going there... until then though... I am not going to deny that there is cruelty... there is....and most of it is perpetuated by religious and the anti-religious(another religion)...