I don't know where you got the notion that I resent what you write when that is not the case. The things I write here aren't related to your discussions [such as control] but the way of Life.
The reason that I write about Self-Awareness and Identity + Persona is that without these things, being just who we are will allow the world to corrupt, control, and make you do what it wants. Without thought, you are pretty much an animation for whoever wants to take hold. Therefore, Self-Awareness is required, but only in to know, love, and understand God.
The only self-awareness that has ever been given to its full length from God is to King Solomon when he asked for knowledge instead of faith.
Any type of other self-awareness is detrimental because it opens up more of the world, makes us chained and only focus on how the world works. This is not our interest, for in Job, God asked him do you know where I store lightning or pretty much anything. The answer to self-awareness through human means only leads to the end.
"There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death."
Finally, I will reference Job one more time as well as any type of Biblical Figure. I will disprove to you and everyone else that being who we are without thought, persona, identity of who we are and our place in the world, and any type of conscious is actually against everything you said.
Yes, the way to God is through Jesus Christ, and yes, God already knew us before we were born.
If we take all these traits and characteristics away from us, it is essentially the same thing that happened to Job. God took HIS PROTECTION off Job, therefore Job lost many of his important features that kept him happy, loving, full of joy. Can you name anything that God keeps on us that has to do with his protection? Maybe thoughts of joy and love, self-awareness that is controlled and not demonically incited?
If we are to lose the ego, the self, identity of who we are, persona and JUST BE OURSELVES, we are asking God to take his protection off us because WE WANT TO BE OURSELVES, yet we ARE NOTHING WITHOUT GOD.
I believe I have answered the main discussion part of this. That there is no us without HIM. God is The Great "I AM". Everything He does is not without purpose. I wouldn't suggest you you try to lose yourself to this world and become a placeholder so that it all can begin to walk over you. For the world will not even spare the best of man. And that is talking solely about the evil nature of men.