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Please no advice... Restarting fast
Date: 7/26/2007 1:10:53 PM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 2076 times hi!
Thank you for your tender messages. I am sorry they could not keep me on my fast. i broke after 2 days. I am now gathering myself to start again. Even the 2-day fast has had good effects. What I am working on is my very real food addiction. The fast brought me out of this for a while, into real willingness and real seriousness about sobriety -- sobriety from doing what I recognize as "getting high on food." ... THis is the main healing that my life requires. ... I have stayed off processed food after my fast. I have craved it but not gone there. I have been very resentful about not having it. I would like you please not to tell me how to feel, not to tell me not to be resentful about this. I really need to assert myself, and if I do not say how I feel I will never get better.
I am experiencing a lot of strong reactions from my body against my ordinary eating habits. I need to work on really cahnging these habits -- again, on "not getting high on food."
I would like you not to give advice, please. I really have never been helped except when people have witnessed my sharing and let me work things out for myself. i need accepting witnesses. If I am not honest I cannot get better. If people give advice to me, I cannot be honest. This is simply the way I am. You can get mad at me for being this way or not accept it but this will not change me. Please do not be offended by what i am saying. I am merely trying to say what I need. i do appreciate your genuine positivity and strength. it is just that I cannot respond to people giving actual directives to do this or feel that. I must say this even if it makes you angry. I am frightened that you will be angry. Please, you do not have to write to me if you do not want to or if you are not able to accept me as I am.
I really do want to learn to fast like you and others. It is just that I have got to express myself and get there my own way. i know that my way is valid. i know that I only need support.
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