Day 5

My "ideal" self after the fast.

Date:   5/27/2006 9:00:38 AM   ( 18 y ) ... viewed 3006 times

Its only the beginning of day 6 but I thought I'd post anyway. Today is going to be a challange. I work 12 hr shifts on saturday and sunday. Usually its not as busy when it starts to get late so my usual routine is pigging out on vending machine food. Theres also this washroom at work with a huge mirror. I can't say how many times I keep going in there just to check myself out. This is an obsession that I'm trying to break. Its also one that has caused me to fail at diets many times over. I need to have more faith. Belief in God that he will provide me with the strength to do this juice fast. That he will keep me healthy and strong throughout. That he will help me to reach my goals. I was reading in the bible this morning about how we should give our lives to God while we are young and in good health so that he can use us to fulfil his good intentions in this world. I'm looking forward to doing the work of God after this fast. Coming to him when I am cleansed and have peace of mind. I would love to do his work with confidence and a good pure spirit. I believe fasting can make me into this person. I just have to believe and have faith.

Mostly at this stage I'm still having problems wrapping my head around fasting for 30 days. Ideally I'd even like to go for 40 days. This morning I woke up thinking what I would do when I fail! I'm already being negative. Again, I just have to believe, keep reading my bible and engaging in self reflection. I need to take things day by day. Get through this day without thinking of the next days ahead.

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