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Day-6-Crazy 24 hours
Emotional rollercoaster can make you very weak on a juice fast. It is important to stay on it no matter what, or else you will be even more upset.
Date: 10/17/2005 8:20:50 PM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 2233 times Sometimes you are subject to an emtional roller coaster, and it makes your stomach upset...and then you almost crack by cheating the diet...which might propel you into further sadness...but you MUST perservere!
Yesterday I was in a total S***hole! My roommate came home and told me I have 30 days to move 'cause she's renting the place out for $1200. I pay $400 to rent this room, so obviously I can't afford anything more.
After she left I cried big sloppy tears wondering what the hell I was going to do. Since the town I live in is really really expensive and my bills are stretched to the max already, I went to sleep pretty early, like 9pm. Upset. Scared. Freaked out.
This morning I went to work dressed really nicely but feeling awful, and puffy eyes from crying the night before. My bosses asked me what was wrong, so I told them I needed a raise or else I was leaving town.
They deliberated for a while, and gave me one!!! So obviously I'm happy now. Even this made me want to eat though.
The rollercoaster is real bad for the diet. The only thing that kept me going was this online journal today. I felt like I HAD to write in it and be honest about the fasting and not let anyone down if they read my experience by cheating.
I went to the gym this morning. But I got my period unexpectedly (even though it is on time) and had to ask a stranger for a tampon. Luckily she gave me two!!! what a nice lady! But I didn't really work out that much... and my muscles were still sore from the General the day before.
I was emotionally/physically exhausted today. Down,,,,,UP! Felt weak inside, like I really needed some food.
My scale is screwy too. 1st it said 130, then it said 135. So I didn't get back on it, it was in the morning and it was making me more depressed.
This morning's enema sucked. Nothing came out the first time, and had to do it again, which kind of hurt. My stomach was on fire. It might have been all the stress from the night before.
wieght: ummm who knows?
emotional: depressed, then happy later
physical: weak
hungry: no, but felt like I wanted to sit down and eat at a nice restaraunt to celebrate.
Juices: Apple, Beets, Ginger, carrots, celery
I sure am glad I made it through today...almost bought a chocolate wafer cookie at the health food store...but I stopped myself, thank the lord. That would have stopped everything I am trying to do internally. If you allow your body to fast, after a certain amount of days, a lot of internal house cleaning happens... and you stop it from happening every time you eat something. I need to rid myself of toxins that are keeping my skin from connecting to the muscle (it's called cellulite).
Day 6 has been pretty damn tough. Cheers to those who make it this far (juice drink toast).
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